Thursday, April 5, 2012

Plain Speak and Hidden Joy

God is up to something. I can feel it in my spirit. I can feel it when I read His word. It has taken on that extra vibrancy and speaks to me extra clearly lately.

No, we're not adopting again . . .yet . . .I don't think. I DO have a feeling that reminds me of our pre-adoption time with the Lord. There's an expectancy in my heart that we are on the cusp of some big family changes.

Are we finally hitting the mission field after my years of praying? Maybe. Only the Lord knows. Seven years ago I left a piece of my heart in Manila, among the poor, and I haven't been able to go back and retrieve it. Oh, how I have asked. The timing hasn't been right . . . so far.

I honestly can't say with perfect certainty what God is preparing us for but I know one thing: I want to take the plunge - wherever it is, whomever it involves and no matter what it costs. I just want to be where HE wants me to be doing the good works that HE has designed before the foundation of the world for me to walk in. I don't want to miss a single thing my Heavenly Father has planned.

I don't mean to be so cryptic. The few details that are shaping up are, in fact, few. Too small and too unformed to type. But I don't think they will be for long.

I'm not a prophetess . . . shoot . . . I'm not even Pentecostal (ha ha)! I'm just a Believer who is hoping that God will use me up to the very last on this ONE RIDE we get here, on Earth. In so many ways, I'm JUST a mom. JUST an ex-public school special ed teacher. JUST a housewife. JUST a homeschool parent. JUST me.

But, like you, I was created for so much more than the "justs". I was created to make a mark for Jesus. So were you. I have been warming up for a long time and I feel like the starting gun is about to fire.

I covet your prayers. I will share more when the time is right. I think it will be soon. Very soon.

Until then, dear friends, "let us reason together as to how we may spur one another on to love and good deeds" Hebrews 10:24-25.

Watching, Praying, At the ready . . .

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